and i would sing you a loud lullaby. when you hover aside and fall asleep. and when you drift in dreams... my loud lullaby will keep you awake.
As I told you before. I'm moving out from Jogja at the end of the month...
I got lots of works to do, and things to contemplate...
And sadly I've decided to take a long rest in writing and updating this blog... It's only temporary, but I have no idea how long it's going to be... But I would visit this blog occasionally, to fill the tag-board so it won't expired... : ) please feel free to tag me or e-mail me if you have anything to share... I may not be around... but always all ears... : )
Till then... Take care guys!!
*waves good bye*
posted @ 4:34 AM 1 comments
I got lots of works to do, and things to contemplate...
And sadly I've decided to take a long rest in writing and updating this blog... It's only temporary, but I have no idea how long it's going to be... But I would visit this blog occasionally, to fill the tag-board so it won't expired... : ) please feel free to tag me or e-mail me if you have anything to share... I may not be around... but always all ears... : )
Till then... Take care guys!!
*waves good bye*
posted @ 4:34 AM 1 comments
Your body is changing.... You skipped a heartbeat when your cell beeps, and you desperately hoping that the name displayed on the screen would be your dearest one...
Your biological hour is changing.... You woke up at certain times when your dearest one used to call...
Come to think of it....
Loving someone... is like hanging your sanity on a thread.
You may try to find any logical reason... But you couldn't...
But when people asked; why are you insanely hanging your sanity on a thread?... You know one answer... It's because loving someone... is the only sanity that framed your insanity...
Why?... because it's not who?, why?, when?, what?, where?.... it's only "how"...
How do you love?...posted @ 12:34 AM 0 comments
Your biological hour is changing.... You woke up at certain times when your dearest one used to call...
Come to think of it....
Loving someone... is like hanging your sanity on a thread.
You may try to find any logical reason... But you couldn't...
But when people asked; why are you insanely hanging your sanity on a thread?... You know one answer... It's because loving someone... is the only sanity that framed your insanity...
Why?... because it's not who?, why?, when?, what?, where?.... it's only "how"...
How do you love?...posted @ 12:34 AM 0 comments
Hope may keep you alive... you cross your fingers and not afraid of any outcome that may occur...
But as soon as it turns its form into expectation... You wait... and wait... that's when things started to hurts...
Just realized, to me... it's not the outcome... It's the process, the fight for a right to fight...
posted @ 4:29 AM 0 comments
But as soon as it turns its form into expectation... You wait... and wait... that's when things started to hurts...
Just realized, to me... it's not the outcome... It's the process, the fight for a right to fight...
posted @ 4:29 AM 0 comments
I know at some point it seems that I get too down hearted. But, come to think of it... I didn't... I know that I've been loosing so much time... And siting here doing nothing is not going to make me keeping up with the pace.
Maybe I need this... on second thought, I need this... and there is no "maybe"... And I got what I need, tho it felt and only last for a day... Being with her, I can see a glimpse of sanity....
PS:
I also realize that some of my bestfriend are really worried. I'm sorry... trully I am...
I'm good... breathing in ease... And just enormously grateful that you proved everything that it takes to be a good friend : )posted @ 12:46 PM 0 comments
Maybe I need this... on second thought, I need this... and there is no "maybe"... And I got what I need, tho it felt and only last for a day... Being with her, I can see a glimpse of sanity....
PS:
I also realize that some of my bestfriend are really worried. I'm sorry... trully I am...
I'm good... breathing in ease... And just enormously grateful that you proved everything that it takes to be a good friend : )posted @ 12:46 PM 0 comments
The cell rang; the voice is cracking the silence. He woke up feeling dizzy and totally uneasy. He gained his focus and looked at the clock.
“Shit! It's two in the morning! This better be good…”
He got off his bed and picked his cell on the table. He takes a look at the name displayed on the screen. It was his ex-girlfriend. He loathed her. He felt the sudden urge to throw his cell out of the window. But that was senseless. So he decided to press the green button and answered the call...
“Yeah”
”Hey...”
“Hey too...”
“How come… you’re in town and didn’t even gave me a call?”
“Like I should” He shrugged his shoulder
“Okay… So how are you? How’s life?”
“I’m good. Can’t complain”
“Uh-huh? That’s not what I heard…” She said that in weird excitement
“What did you heard?” He started to feel irritated
“Heard that it didn’t work out…”
“What didn’t work out?” He had a hunch on where this conversation are going
“You and your new girl…” There was a slight satisfaction in her voice
“Never trust gossip” He thought of few names he could kill later
“Hmm… I know what you need…”
“What do I need?”
“You need SEX… a good SEX!” She hissed a clear temptation
“I don’t” He slipped his thumb on the red button of his cell
“Oh come on… I’ll be good… I’ll make you really happy…” She moaned another temptation
“Did we ever have sex before?” He rubbed the red button with his thumb. The urge to hung up is getting stronger
“No… never… and it kills me…” She was desperate
“What makes you think… that I would go there at two in the morning… and do something we never did?” He was ready to push the red button
“Oh please… Just drove here… And FUCK me!” She was totally desperate
“OK… FUCK YOU!!” He didn’t have to yell. The blatant sarcasm on the last word did the job well.
He pressed the red button and turned his cell off. Later, he shook his head and throws himself on the bed. He pulled the blanket and gracefully went off to sleep.
posted @ 7:56 PM 1 comments
“Shit! It's two in the morning! This better be good…”
He got off his bed and picked his cell on the table. He takes a look at the name displayed on the screen. It was his ex-girlfriend. He loathed her. He felt the sudden urge to throw his cell out of the window. But that was senseless. So he decided to press the green button and answered the call...
“Yeah”
”Hey...”
“Hey too...”
“How come… you’re in town and didn’t even gave me a call?”
“Like I should” He shrugged his shoulder
“Okay… So how are you? How’s life?”
“I’m good. Can’t complain”
“Uh-huh? That’s not what I heard…” She said that in weird excitement
“What did you heard?” He started to feel irritated
“Heard that it didn’t work out…”
“What didn’t work out?” He had a hunch on where this conversation are going
“You and your new girl…” There was a slight satisfaction in her voice
“Never trust gossip” He thought of few names he could kill later
“Hmm… I know what you need…”
“What do I need?”
“You need SEX… a good SEX!” She hissed a clear temptation
“I don’t” He slipped his thumb on the red button of his cell
“Oh come on… I’ll be good… I’ll make you really happy…” She moaned another temptation
“Did we ever have sex before?” He rubbed the red button with his thumb. The urge to hung up is getting stronger
“No… never… and it kills me…” She was desperate
“What makes you think… that I would go there at two in the morning… and do something we never did?” He was ready to push the red button
“Oh please… Just drove here… And FUCK me!” She was totally desperate
“OK… FUCK YOU!!” He didn’t have to yell. The blatant sarcasm on the last word did the job well.
He pressed the red button and turned his cell off. Later, he shook his head and throws himself on the bed. He pulled the blanket and gracefully went off to sleep.
posted @ 7:56 PM 1 comments
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