and i would sing you a loud lullaby. when you hover aside and fall asleep. and when you drift in dreams... my loud lullaby will keep you awake.



sudden.sudden.sudden

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Do you believe that in a split second, your life can change completely?... Or sometimes it just a sudden change of situation that out of your control and everything turning into a major disappointment....

Today I had a VB class, and I was late for about a half hour... It was drizzling. I ride my bike slowly, and the drizzle is barely bothering me since I wore my GORE-TEX, North Face Jacket. But when I got into the cross road just in front of the Technic Faculty, the drizzle changed into a heavy rain.... and I got all wet... I mean really wet...

I got in to class with water still dripping from my pants and jackets... my cell is almost wet ( thankfully it was still okay ), and considering that I'm allergic to cold... the air conditioner is definetely turn out to be a sneezing trigger...

So there... wet... dizzy and sneezing in class... and my delphi exam was trully a wreck... I need a lot of pratice... but the VB doesn't look as complicated as delphi tho...


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a.bullet.whisper act.2

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[ the young man ]
"they said that we.... can be a God in a scrap of paper.... "
"I'm in dead end..."
"I have the whole idea... but I'm totally lost..."
"How am I going to end this...."
( his fingers stop tapping the keyboard, the young man is drown again in his deep contemplation... "

[ the man ]
"I'm going to end it here...."
"Tonight... the monster is about to die...."
( The man smiled in grim face..., he opens the chambers... picks up a bullet and lick the bullet... )
"cold... the taste of dead is cold?..."
( he put the bullet back into the chamber... and aim the revolver at the wall... )

[ the woman ]
She run in a funny pacy style... out to the street...
"I hope I'm not too late..."
"Taxi !!...."
"Redfields apartment!... On the Coppinger St.!..."

[ the bullet ]
Back in the chamber...
"that man is using a minty toothpaste...."

To be continued....
======================================

I haven't update this story so long... Felt like years...
So?... any clue how it ends?... Can you guess the relation between those character I made?...
And in case you missed the 1st act, you can look into the post on the 8th October 2004
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a.rainy.day

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Just finishing my Delphi exam... There were 3 program, and I took the program no.3, it was difficult but has the most points..... And it turns out as a total failure... I clicked too many buttons, and the programming language I'm working is lost... So much for nothing.... >sigh< Sapto was too kind when he offered me to copy his works... but the network was inaccessible anyway.... After the exam, I had lunch with Sapto...., and after that we went to borrow some cd's

me : "Man...... My exam is a wreck...."

Sapto : " Let's eat.... I'm hungry...."
me : “Okay… I haven’t eat since morning…”
Sapto : “Geez…no wonder you look so skinny…”
After borrowing some cd

me : “heck.... it’s raining…… again?….”
Sapto : “it’s rainy season……( DUH !! )”

( And then I felt so stupid…. That damned Delphi exam took my sense away… and perhaps some part of my brain too…. )
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shades.of.gray

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It was raining outside, I sat and enjoyed a cup of coffe in front of the angkringan... it was drizzling, and the road shines reflecting a beautiful and blurry image of people walking, cars and bike that runs over it.... I always enjoyed every scene from after rain situation... the smell.. the left over water that falls from the shaken trees... it was my comforting zone... it always been...

I was drown in my thoughts, thinking a friends statement... "life is so complicated"...

Complicated?... We see things differently as we've grown... And considering that the invention of time machine is the only almost-impossible invention that us... human would have engineered... I couldn't be more skeptical then I am right now...

"at morning it crawls with four feet.... at day it runs with two feet...and by dawn it runs with three feet"....

I wonder if I can enjoy the same scene ( let's say ) for the next 7 months later.... enjoying every shades on the wet asphalt... as every image on it moves... it reminds me on how... we cannot... predict our future... everything is a blur... until you get closer look....


Line of the day : " why the sky have no end?..."
( Dakota Fanning : I am Sam )
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past.present.future

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The past came down last night...
She glance at the present...

The present asking for a wine...
His thirst for dying is seeking....

A toast between the past and the present...
Taste my sweet sin she said....
As regretful I might he said...

The future walk in...
Uttering his prophecy....
Both of you... pointed towards the past and future...

The sweet taste of the wine...
Will hunt you down....
Shadowing your every step....
Yet it cause you no despair....

For I....
The future....
Shall bear all the pain...

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heck.heck.heck

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Dammit... last night my nose was bleeding... prolly because the weather is damn hot lately. I couldn't get some rest and my constitution is finally braking down.... again.

And I woke up this day, sneezing all the way, got a sore throat !!.... I catch another cold... So that make twice cold in a month.... darn !!.... Eventhough I may look like a junkie ( blame it on the insomnia... LOL )... I had an excellent constitution.... or at least, I used to....

So... the cold has forced me to make some decision :
  1. Go see a doctor... ( I had a beeding nose... so it might a lil' bit serious.... )
  2. I had to stop smoking.... ( Yeah... it reminds me of my year planning... Quit smoking on 25... )
  3. I had to crash back to Kaliurang for a few days.. ( the temperature there is a lot more friendly then here....)
  4. I had to buy another pack of tissues....
  5. Start doing some sports to regain some physical strenght.... ( but my knee injury is killing me.... !! )
  6. Get a lot of sleep....... ( owh.... how I missed those days when I'm still a sleepy head bastard... LOL )

Well... wishing you all the best guys.... And stay healthy !!

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a.time.wisdom

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Upon this roughest journey...
I tried to rest next to an oasis... when an image of a man in a grey robe is coming out of the blue... Right then... I knew...

I met the oldest wisdom so called time...

In a paused moment.... He glances and whisper...
"Don't be bothered my boy..."
"Your piece of eternity not yet sailed away... it is ticking... but not yet sailed away..."

I stood and cried, "...eternity?... tell me about eternity..."
"what kind of eternity shall be blessed upon my lineage..."
"... my lineage that filled with the jokes of fate..."


The Time pull out his hand out of his robe...
His fingers outlining my puzzled face...

"When she... the death... came to you and kissed you with a plain simplicity... ending your agony... that's a second in eternity..."
"When a phoenix... burnt into ashes and revived... that's a second in eternity..."
"When your mother... gasping her breath... in a magical moment when you were born... that's a second of eternity...
"When the drop of waterfalls... finally break the stones down the stream... that's a second of eternity..."
"When Eros... flied his arrow towards your fortified soul... and loneliness felt no more.. that's a second of eternity..."
"And you know well... my boy... you're not even traveled in an hour of eternity... not yet..."


I stood silence... feeling so naive...

The time smiled, "Worry not my boy... naive is one form of purest honesty...."
His fingers is now dancing upon my forehead..." Close your eyes my boy... and I shall show you... an hour of eternity..."

I closed my eyes... feeling that every single moment of my past is running riot inside my head... the room on my brain is opening their doors... various memories scrambled out... creating a new empty spaces...

I open my eyes... the time has gone... only a whisper is swiftly swarming into my ears..."Now... look upon the water my boy... look closely... and you'll find and hour of eternity..."

I step into the edge of the oasis... Down on my knee... and watch the blur image on the water transforming into a perfect match of a mirror...

There... I saw a line on my forehead... The time has draw a faint line...the first line on my life... a line of age...

The line.... It's never an aging stature... but merely... an hour in eternity...

Somehow I knew that the time is not answering all my question... but yet.. the mistery... is always more intriguing...




Line of the day : "...and he told me that love is very powerful..."
(Angayuqaq Kowagley, PhD : Brother Bear )


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