a [loud] lullaby: vindicated

and i would sing you a loud lullaby. when you hover aside and fall asleep. and when you drift in dreams... my loud lullaby will keep you awake.

vindicated

Published Friday, September 24, 2004 by yani patrik | E-mail this post

...I just talk to Sapto. And I told him almost everything. My fears, my darkest irony, my contemplation, my sin..... and my hope ( I thought I lost them.. )

And you can guess the look on his face... he's shocked alright.

I'm vindicated...

I'm tired running... and suddenly I miss the my dear ghost... hoping that she would woke me up and told me to get a midnight prayer...and not freaked me out again. I think for tonight I'll sleep on my old boarding house...got some friends still hangin there... ( miss ur ghostly beauty...)

I left my routine prayer for about a month... and now I felt like I'm gonna stumble.

A quarter of a century... and the years slowly has drawed some line age upon my forehead. Yet, I have no idea where the dear fate will take me...

Last night on my dream...I thought I've seen death... and she runs her finger and scrambling my messy hair...she pinch my nose knowing I'd hate that but I'd do nothing...she blinks her eyes and told me that I had to wait for about 40 years...and later she'll promise me a sweet kiss on that day...

I cried... "Okay... I'll wait... but it's gotta be you... not the man in a black rope pointing his scythe on hells waiting list..."

She's gone... but the whisper echoed... "Dear...didn't I just promised you a kiss..., angels don't tell lies..."

And then...I fall gracefully...

Line of the day :"...I wanted it to be you... I wanted it so badly..."
( Meg Ryan ; You've Got Mail )