and i would sing you a loud lullaby. when you hover aside and fall asleep. and when you drift in dreams... my loud lullaby will keep you awake.
You'll shivers... and then....laugh out loud....
Published Saturday, October 30, 2004 by yani patrik.
Please... read this post until the very last word... I'll promise you a very good laugh... not a shivering horror...
Well... when I wrote that "ghost story", I never expected any "encounter" in a short time.... Last night, I got home at around 2 am, it is obvious that the neighborhood still dark and quiet...
If you have the time to visit Jogjakarta, and happen to pass by the Lempuyangan Train Station, you'll notice a long row of big and old houses in front of the train station. Those houses was supposedly owned by the employees for the Indonesian Train Company. Well, I'm staying there these days, the boarding cost was affordable, and it only took me about five minutes to get to my new campus, Gadjah Mada University.
Anyway, ....last night I was so tired, yet still unable to sleep. I closed the front gate, and walk inside the side yard, open the iron gate as it was always locked. I parked my bike in the garage, then open the door next to the garage... suddenly...
I heard a slight movement from the kitchen... and I felt that my body shivering... (in a strange way though...). And a blur white image walking slowly out of the kitchen... I was shocked... >nowhhhh.... not again...<... and the door I just opened is making this low sound... by hearing the sound.... the image turns it whole body towards me... and then..... the image speaks softly....
"Monggo nak.... saking pundi mawon...??..."... ( it was javanese higher language which means : "welcome lad... where have you been..??" )
It turns out that the white image was my landlady, she was taking a night prayer and still wear her "mukena" ( a long white dress and white head covers that the female moslem wore when they did a prayer )... then she went to the kitchen to warm the meal for "sahur"....
You can imagine the look on my face... from a state of shock into a straight relieve... I have to admit that it took me a few seconds to get a hold of myself.....
After some short explanation from me... She asked a permission to went back into the main house. I entered my room... taking a pillow... cover it up on my face... and laugh my ass off.... That explain the shiver... it was weird... I did not scared as my first encounter 4 years ago... but it still gives me some shiver though... I wasn't wearing my glasses... and the lamp was off... so it explain everything....
So much for a ghost story eh..... LOL
Line of the day : "... please... I need to be on my own.."
( Nicole Kidman : The Other)
posted @ 1:13 AM 1 comments
Well... when I wrote that "ghost story", I never expected any "encounter" in a short time.... Last night, I got home at around 2 am, it is obvious that the neighborhood still dark and quiet...
If you have the time to visit Jogjakarta, and happen to pass by the Lempuyangan Train Station, you'll notice a long row of big and old houses in front of the train station. Those houses was supposedly owned by the employees for the Indonesian Train Company. Well, I'm staying there these days, the boarding cost was affordable, and it only took me about five minutes to get to my new campus, Gadjah Mada University.
Anyway, ....last night I was so tired, yet still unable to sleep. I closed the front gate, and walk inside the side yard, open the iron gate as it was always locked. I parked my bike in the garage, then open the door next to the garage... suddenly...
I heard a slight movement from the kitchen... and I felt that my body shivering... (in a strange way though...). And a blur white image walking slowly out of the kitchen... I was shocked... >nowhhhh.... not again...<... and the door I just opened is making this low sound... by hearing the sound.... the image turns it whole body towards me... and then..... the image speaks softly....
"Monggo nak.... saking pundi mawon...??..."... ( it was javanese higher language which means : "welcome lad... where have you been..??" )
It turns out that the white image was my landlady, she was taking a night prayer and still wear her "mukena" ( a long white dress and white head covers that the female moslem wore when they did a prayer )... then she went to the kitchen to warm the meal for "sahur"....
You can imagine the look on my face... from a state of shock into a straight relieve... I have to admit that it took me a few seconds to get a hold of myself.....
After some short explanation from me... She asked a permission to went back into the main house. I entered my room... taking a pillow... cover it up on my face... and laugh my ass off.... That explain the shiver... it was weird... I did not scared as my first encounter 4 years ago... but it still gives me some shiver though... I wasn't wearing my glasses... and the lamp was off... so it explain everything....
So much for a ghost story eh..... LOL
Line of the day : "... please... I need to be on my own.."
( Nicole Kidman : The Other)
posted @ 1:13 AM 1 comments
As I much as I want to forget it... a promise is a promise....
Well....I owe a story to mia....
You must be noticing that there are so many supranatural show on TV... >sigh<. It's not that I don't believe in such thing, I do...
About 4 year ago, when I had this "Community Service" ( Well I don't have the proper word for "KKN"... LOL ), I found out that one of my friends in my team has this extended ability when it comes to "the sixth sense". And on one night, I watched a football match between Tottenham Hotspur vs Liverpool ( and darn... Liverpool lost 2-0 )... anyway, that night I heard a prayer for the ladies room... it turns out that my friend is praying rather loudly...
And when she realize that I was watching TV ( I yell loudly in vain when Liverpool are down two goals...) , she came out from the room.... pale and trembling.... So asked her if anything was wrong... At first she was hesitating... and later she told me that she had a stalker from.... well.... you can call it "another dimension". I thought that she was joking... But she wasn't.... believe it or not... the air is suddenly freezing... She told me that a huge green creature with red flaming eyes is peeking her from the ceiling... And just after she finished her story... a shadow is moving from the front door...
I cannot do anything but comforting her, telling that it was only her imagination.... After the match ended, I told her to went back to bed, and no matter what... "just close your eyes". I had to get back at the house where the other boys are staying ( boys and girls are stayed at different house, and only the girl's house that has a tv... )
So I walked out the house, the place I'm staying in is only a few houses away....But as I got nearer to the house, I saw this strange behavior on the dogs ( most people there has a dog in each house )... they were crawling outside... walking towards me and started to bark... the freaking part is... when I realized that those dogs weren't barking at me... They were barking to someone or something behind me.... And the house that lies just a few feet ahead....is suddenly pulling the distance....
At that moment.... I'd glady face ten men in a fight, rather than turn my back to see who's behind me.... because somehow... I knew that whoever is standing behind me....it was not human... I was cursing my luck like hell... I cannot move a single muscle....
I just closed my eyes... stop cursing.... and started to pray.... and suddenly everything was so quiet... the dogs were gone... and my blood system is running again.... But the nighmare wasn't over yet... when I tried to get some sleep... one of my friend is snoring toooo damn loud....
Guess what.... on the next morning, I woke up late and found out that my friend was collapsed... she was shocked, and the other guys had to take her to the hospital... Later I found out that few months earlier she had an accident, and she went coma for five days... and when she gain her consciousness, she start to see "other thing"... After a few days, she was fine and everythng just went normal...
The last time I saw a ghost, is in the house I rented..... 2 months ago....before it got expired...
I felt like I was dreaming, I was lying in this pine forest... and suddenly I realize that a girl with a white long dress is sitting next to me... Her long dark hair is covering up her face... she said nothing and just sit there...
Okay... This forest is beatiful....but this is a nightmare... I got to wake up.... So, I open up my eyes... and got myself petrified... I found out that the girl was sitting next to my bed... I bite my tongue to make sure that I wasn't dreaming... and it hurts... so this is real.... She just sit there and said nothing... It last about five minutes or so... and in blink... she was gone...
It happen in three day in a row... just a couple day before I'm going to defend my thesis in order to get my bachelor degree.
Maybe she was trying to tell me to get some night prayer or something... or merely just wanted to say goodbye because I'm leaving the house... I have no idea.... That house is somehow has this strange atmoshpere... it's gloomy yet comforting.... I don't know....
Line of the day : "....run scoob...."
( mathew lillard : scooby-doo)
posted @ 11:40 PM 1 comments
Well....I owe a story to mia....
You must be noticing that there are so many supranatural show on TV... >sigh<. It's not that I don't believe in such thing, I do...
About 4 year ago, when I had this "Community Service" ( Well I don't have the proper word for "KKN"... LOL ), I found out that one of my friends in my team has this extended ability when it comes to "the sixth sense". And on one night, I watched a football match between Tottenham Hotspur vs Liverpool ( and darn... Liverpool lost 2-0 )... anyway, that night I heard a prayer for the ladies room... it turns out that my friend is praying rather loudly...
And when she realize that I was watching TV ( I yell loudly in vain when Liverpool are down two goals...) , she came out from the room.... pale and trembling.... So asked her if anything was wrong... At first she was hesitating... and later she told me that she had a stalker from.... well.... you can call it "another dimension". I thought that she was joking... But she wasn't.... believe it or not... the air is suddenly freezing... She told me that a huge green creature with red flaming eyes is peeking her from the ceiling... And just after she finished her story... a shadow is moving from the front door...
I cannot do anything but comforting her, telling that it was only her imagination.... After the match ended, I told her to went back to bed, and no matter what... "just close your eyes". I had to get back at the house where the other boys are staying ( boys and girls are stayed at different house, and only the girl's house that has a tv... )
So I walked out the house, the place I'm staying in is only a few houses away....But as I got nearer to the house, I saw this strange behavior on the dogs ( most people there has a dog in each house )... they were crawling outside... walking towards me and started to bark... the freaking part is... when I realized that those dogs weren't barking at me... They were barking to someone or something behind me.... And the house that lies just a few feet ahead....is suddenly pulling the distance....
At that moment.... I'd glady face ten men in a fight, rather than turn my back to see who's behind me.... because somehow... I knew that whoever is standing behind me....it was not human... I was cursing my luck like hell... I cannot move a single muscle....
I just closed my eyes... stop cursing.... and started to pray.... and suddenly everything was so quiet... the dogs were gone... and my blood system is running again.... But the nighmare wasn't over yet... when I tried to get some sleep... one of my friend is snoring toooo damn loud....
Guess what.... on the next morning, I woke up late and found out that my friend was collapsed... she was shocked, and the other guys had to take her to the hospital... Later I found out that few months earlier she had an accident, and she went coma for five days... and when she gain her consciousness, she start to see "other thing"... After a few days, she was fine and everythng just went normal...
The last time I saw a ghost, is in the house I rented..... 2 months ago....before it got expired...
I felt like I was dreaming, I was lying in this pine forest... and suddenly I realize that a girl with a white long dress is sitting next to me... Her long dark hair is covering up her face... she said nothing and just sit there...
Okay... This forest is beatiful....but this is a nightmare... I got to wake up.... So, I open up my eyes... and got myself petrified... I found out that the girl was sitting next to my bed... I bite my tongue to make sure that I wasn't dreaming... and it hurts... so this is real.... She just sit there and said nothing... It last about five minutes or so... and in blink... she was gone...
It happen in three day in a row... just a couple day before I'm going to defend my thesis in order to get my bachelor degree.
Maybe she was trying to tell me to get some night prayer or something... or merely just wanted to say goodbye because I'm leaving the house... I have no idea.... That house is somehow has this strange atmoshpere... it's gloomy yet comforting.... I don't know....
Line of the day : "....run scoob...."
( mathew lillard : scooby-doo)
posted @ 11:40 PM 1 comments
Now... I'm - so - not in the mood to be such a sentimental prig...
But earlier this afternoon... I stepped out the house and found my "most" favorite view... A mix of violet and grey afternoon sky, and it was drizzling... the drizzle was perfect... pouring every inches of the front yard... I just love the smell of soil poured by rain... somehow it smell funny.... but comforting...
I sat in angkringan in front of the house, ready to fill my throat as the today fasting was about to end...
The owner was a man at fifty something... the ages draw the perfect lineage of persistence... He offered me an ice tea... I smiled... " yes sir..., you already know my addiction to tea..".
I take a quick sip, and start to contemplating on things that happened to me over this few days...
But earlier this afternoon... I stepped out the house and found my "most" favorite view... A mix of violet and grey afternoon sky, and it was drizzling... the drizzle was perfect... pouring every inches of the front yard... I just love the smell of soil poured by rain... somehow it smell funny.... but comforting...
I sat in angkringan in front of the house, ready to fill my throat as the today fasting was about to end...
The owner was a man at fifty something... the ages draw the perfect lineage of persistence... He offered me an ice tea... I smiled... " yes sir..., you already know my addiction to tea..".
I take a quick sip, and start to contemplating on things that happened to me over this few days...
- I've overcome my thought and despair in my friend death's.....,
- I've got myself a reply from the editor of "the da vinci codes"... explaining his regards on my critics on the translation,
- I got amazed by the comment on my tag board on my blogspot account, it said "suicide ideation is a sequel to ambiguity, an answer to vagueness, a continuation of boredom "...well I couldn't agre more...
- I missed my "delphi" class twice... >sigh<
- I was so pissed of last night... I wrote the 2nd act. on "a bullet whisper"... and suddenly a bad connection is ruiningeverything... and I couldn't remember every single word I've wrote... >sigh<
- I'm at my quarter of a century... and still looking for a suitable job... I'm getting poorer each day.... >sigh<
- Jogja is damn hot lately... but the rain paid off anyway... >can't complain anymore<
- And Lifehouse is recording their new album... I've listened to the rough recording at the band's official website... and it was awesome... the new song is called " Come Back Down"
Well... so much for a weekend contemplation eh...
Line of the day : "...and the accumulated wisdom..."
( Tom Hanks : The Ladylkillers )
I don't know... in some way or another... she's inevitable... sooner or later..we'll bump into her eventually... face to face...
To me... it's DEATH who make us stop and contemplating.... NOT LOVE !!!
But I couldn't get my self on a grip of a proper explanation on the she works.... I'm here... replying some comments, browsing some regular sites, checkin my e-mails, drinking a bottle of tea, smoking a pack of cigarettes... and a freezing lake started to break apart is drawed pefectly on my eyes...
One thing I hate about myself in a devastating situation ... is that I always ended up cuddling my scraped knee on the corner of my room...
I never cried if she came.... all my entire life... I never shed any tears on death.... yet.... Even if she came to take someone dear or even my family... The truth is....I never understands why people cried on death or funerals... shouldn't they be happy...??? I mean... for the dead... no more pain... no more witnessing the agony... no worries on how the dear time will draw the lines of fate tomorrow... what could be better...??.
My most suicidal thoughts... if they were... a revolver and a hungry-for-life-bullet... I would gladly put myself into an end....
Again... a chain of frames passing me by... they whisper... Not now !!!... I tried not to listen... I don't care... loosing your dear friends in tragic way is not making me any stronger... I can't be there so sturdy yet crumbling apart inside....
Not anymore.... maybe.....my novels ends here...
posted @ 2:22 AM 2 comments
To me... it's DEATH who make us stop and contemplating.... NOT LOVE !!!
But I couldn't get my self on a grip of a proper explanation on the she works.... I'm here... replying some comments, browsing some regular sites, checkin my e-mails, drinking a bottle of tea, smoking a pack of cigarettes... and a freezing lake started to break apart is drawed pefectly on my eyes...
One thing I hate about myself in a devastating situation ... is that I always ended up cuddling my scraped knee on the corner of my room...
I never cried if she came.... all my entire life... I never shed any tears on death.... yet.... Even if she came to take someone dear or even my family... The truth is....I never understands why people cried on death or funerals... shouldn't they be happy...??? I mean... for the dead... no more pain... no more witnessing the agony... no worries on how the dear time will draw the lines of fate tomorrow... what could be better...??.
My most suicidal thoughts... if they were... a revolver and a hungry-for-life-bullet... I would gladly put myself into an end....
Again... a chain of frames passing me by... they whisper... Not now !!!... I tried not to listen... I don't care... loosing your dear friends in tragic way is not making me any stronger... I can't be there so sturdy yet crumbling apart inside....
Not anymore.... maybe.....my novels ends here...
posted @ 2:22 AM 2 comments
Today, I woke up at three in the afternoon.... and something tells me to check my cell for messages..... and I got 4 new messages....and 3 miss call...
The 1st message caught my eyes, is unusual... Manda, I mean I know the person very well, but he rarely sends me any messages. And I wasn't prepare for any surprises.... He told me that one of my friend died last night over an accident... Andri died on accident.... I read that line over and over again... I called some of my friends to make sure that the name written on the text was him....
I found myself.... cuddling up the gloomy air in my room....
He died... not a close friend... but for me... he still dear... he spent his first two year with me on the same boarding house. Last time I met him was about two years ago... on a garden party, celebrating his graduation... he's a talented architect.... a loyal person... he's having this long time relationship with his girlfriend since high school... about nine years of relationship... I can't imagine how she felt about this...
I remember the way he smoke... it's very unusual... he smoke the cigarrete like a child sucking a lollypops... he always got a wet filter... we used to make jokes on the way he smoke....
About four years ago I lost a friend over an accident too... I'm still able to draw the image when I saw his back and waving good bye... a last goodbye actually... a friend knocks my door at midnight and told me that he's gone... I yelled in disbelieve...how come ???... We just went fishing today....
And today... their face flashing in my eyes... a fast moving frames.... their smile, their laugh....
I lost four dear friend over accidents... tragic... all of them was a very good people in many qualities...
The truth is... I have no idea... Death has her own way in my circles.... always in surprise... unexcpected person and ways to die...
( To Tubagus, Taufiq, Andry and Mas Rifqi... I can only pray... )
Line of the day : "... I told you I wont be coming back..."
( Robert de Niro : HEAT )
posted @ 11:12 PM 0 comments
The 1st message caught my eyes, is unusual... Manda, I mean I know the person very well, but he rarely sends me any messages. And I wasn't prepare for any surprises.... He told me that one of my friend died last night over an accident... Andri died on accident.... I read that line over and over again... I called some of my friends to make sure that the name written on the text was him....
I found myself.... cuddling up the gloomy air in my room....
He died... not a close friend... but for me... he still dear... he spent his first two year with me on the same boarding house. Last time I met him was about two years ago... on a garden party, celebrating his graduation... he's a talented architect.... a loyal person... he's having this long time relationship with his girlfriend since high school... about nine years of relationship... I can't imagine how she felt about this...
I remember the way he smoke... it's very unusual... he smoke the cigarrete like a child sucking a lollypops... he always got a wet filter... we used to make jokes on the way he smoke....
About four years ago I lost a friend over an accident too... I'm still able to draw the image when I saw his back and waving good bye... a last goodbye actually... a friend knocks my door at midnight and told me that he's gone... I yelled in disbelieve...how come ???... We just went fishing today....
And today... their face flashing in my eyes... a fast moving frames.... their smile, their laugh....
I lost four dear friend over accidents... tragic... all of them was a very good people in many qualities...
The truth is... I have no idea... Death has her own way in my circles.... always in surprise... unexcpected person and ways to die...
( To Tubagus, Taufiq, Andry and Mas Rifqi... I can only pray... )
Line of the day : "... I told you I wont be coming back..."
( Robert de Niro : HEAT )
posted @ 11:12 PM 0 comments
it's my 1st day back in class... again...
And you now what... It wasn't that fun... really... I mean.... hey I'm totally new with this stuff.... not like my other classmates which they had IT background.... I'm NEWBIE here dude !!!....
I was sleepy, hungry... and almost...( almost ) pissed off... because when we're done with programming and stuff... by the time I tried to save my work... the computer just halted... great !!!.... MAKE MY DAY !!!...
Line of the day : "... stop being a phedo-failure...."
( Robbin Williams : Good Will Hunting )
posted @ 2:03 AM 2 comments
And you now what... It wasn't that fun... really... I mean.... hey I'm totally new with this stuff.... not like my other classmates which they had IT background.... I'm NEWBIE here dude !!!....
I was sleepy, hungry... and almost...( almost ) pissed off... because when we're done with programming and stuff... by the time I tried to save my work... the computer just halted... great !!!.... MAKE MY DAY !!!...
Line of the day : "... stop being a phedo-failure...."
( Robbin Williams : Good Will Hunting )
posted @ 2:03 AM 2 comments
One of my friends was asking me to check a user on fs... " that babe was a bomb !!, you gotta admire her..."...
Well, I don't have to bother reminding him that I have no interest in "hot chicks"... this friend of mine is a persistent "bastard" when it comes to "chicks"... so in a way or another... I had to check it anyway... >sigh< ( And for your information, it happens at 10 pm, if you are mentioning that this supposed to be fasting days...LOL )
Instead typing the e-mail address, I type the girl's name on user search... and I laugh my ass off... there was six account on that name... all different profiles but... same photos... ( altough I hate to admit that my friend was right... she's a bomb alright... no... they are bombs...al six of them..!! )...
So I told my friends to check them using the user search as I did... Later he told me that he bookmarked all of them.... LOL
To much to waste eh...
Line of the day : "... yeah.... they're real..."
( roseanne barr : home on the range )
posted @ 1:56 AM 0 comments
Well, I don't have to bother reminding him that I have no interest in "hot chicks"... this friend of mine is a persistent "bastard" when it comes to "chicks"... so in a way or another... I had to check it anyway... >sigh< ( And for your information, it happens at 10 pm, if you are mentioning that this supposed to be fasting days...LOL )
Instead typing the e-mail address, I type the girl's name on user search... and I laugh my ass off... there was six account on that name... all different profiles but... same photos... ( altough I hate to admit that my friend was right... she's a bomb alright... no... they are bombs...al six of them..!! )...
So I told my friends to check them using the user search as I did... Later he told me that he bookmarked all of them.... LOL
To much to waste eh...
Line of the day : "... yeah.... they're real..."
( roseanne barr : home on the range )
posted @ 1:56 AM 0 comments
so typical of me...
Yesterday I was merely taking off just to get some fresh air and get draw some cash to pay the cost of my boarding house... on my way back... I didn't realize that I was taking the route passing one place that I was planned to stay away for this month.... the "social agency" bookstore...
And by the time I realize it, I was already in the bookstores parking lot.... >sigh<
And look what I found... "winnetou III" by karl may and "the da vinci code" by dan brown.... and each of them is the last stock... bummer...
Well you can guess what happen next.... I had to face my landlady and ask her for a "delay"... and told her why... lucky for me.... she fully understands.... ( thank you ma'am )
I get myself comfortable on my bed and started to read... the da vinci code is my 1st choice...and heck.... on chapter 15, I found this ridicolous translation... " Guru telah menyediakan baginya pistol Heckler Koch USP 40 putaran 13"... putaran ???... WTF....???...
hey dude... "rounds" in guns doesn't mean "putaran", it means the number of the bullets on the magazine.... ( being the most wanted Counter Strike member in my LAN gaming days is finnaly paid off !!!.... LOL )
And on chapter 46....page 278 " Dia merogoh telepon genggam dari sakunya.... dan memutar nomor".... Have you seen a cell phone that you actually have to scroll the numbers like an old fashioned phone... DUH....
This is why... somehow I h8 translated books....
Line of the day : "... I got a gun..."
(Ashton Kustcher : My Boss's Daughter)
posted @ 1:09 AM 1 comments
Yesterday I was merely taking off just to get some fresh air and get draw some cash to pay the cost of my boarding house... on my way back... I didn't realize that I was taking the route passing one place that I was planned to stay away for this month.... the "social agency" bookstore...
And by the time I realize it, I was already in the bookstores parking lot.... >sigh<
And look what I found... "winnetou III" by karl may and "the da vinci code" by dan brown.... and each of them is the last stock... bummer...
Well you can guess what happen next.... I had to face my landlady and ask her for a "delay"... and told her why... lucky for me.... she fully understands.... ( thank you ma'am )
I get myself comfortable on my bed and started to read... the da vinci code is my 1st choice...and heck.... on chapter 15, I found this ridicolous translation... " Guru telah menyediakan baginya pistol Heckler Koch USP 40 putaran 13"... putaran ???... WTF....???...
hey dude... "rounds" in guns doesn't mean "putaran", it means the number of the bullets on the magazine.... ( being the most wanted Counter Strike member in my LAN gaming days is finnaly paid off !!!.... LOL )
And on chapter 46....page 278 " Dia merogoh telepon genggam dari sakunya.... dan memutar nomor".... Have you seen a cell phone that you actually have to scroll the numbers like an old fashioned phone... DUH....
This is why... somehow I h8 translated books....
Line of the day : "... I got a gun..."
(Ashton Kustcher : My Boss's Daughter)
posted @ 1:09 AM 1 comments
Well…. Ramadhan is coming….
These three words is all mean necessary... maghfurin, makbulin and maizun...
Maghfurin means forgiveness on your sin, Makbulin means that all your good deeds will be rewarded and Maizun means “victorious”...
Last year, I had an awful fasting. Its not that I miss any single day... I never missed any... But last year, I felt “lacking” in controls... Dunno about this year though...
A “not so young” man like me is certainly in looking for a more specific direction... So I'm hoping that everything would work the way I wanted it....
Line of the Day : ...." God put you in my way..."
( Djimon Hounsou : The Four Feathers )
posted @ 11:52 PM 0 comments
These three words is all mean necessary... maghfurin, makbulin and maizun...
Maghfurin means forgiveness on your sin, Makbulin means that all your good deeds will be rewarded and Maizun means “victorious”...
Last year, I had an awful fasting. Its not that I miss any single day... I never missed any... But last year, I felt “lacking” in controls... Dunno about this year though...
A “not so young” man like me is certainly in looking for a more specific direction... So I'm hoping that everything would work the way I wanted it....
Line of the Day : ...." God put you in my way..."
( Djimon Hounsou : The Four Feathers )
posted @ 11:52 PM 0 comments
My head is still a little bit dizzy... the sneezing part is far from over and my coughing problem is getting worse... I called Lia ( she's a friend from meds department ) to drop by and bring me so pills... or whatever... but she couldn't make it... oh Bwuggherr...
prolly took me a full box of tissue just to wipe the "sticky eyuchy liquicy thingy" from my nose.... I might look like a junkie... ( as a result of my insomniac )...but I have an excellent constitution… so I rarely got sick… But dunno… I guess I had to do the sport routine again…
I couldn't slept last night... dunno what's happen but it was damn hot !!... So I turn on my PC and start drawing some icons using paint and Corel Draw... and as u can see... a silly icon is replacing my old sephia colored icon...
Not bad for a coughing and sneezing man who can barely focus on the mouse movement… LOL
Line of the day : "....yay..yay.."
( Escobar Tongue : Kung POW )
posted @ 2:10 AM 1 comments
prolly took me a full box of tissue just to wipe the "sticky eyuchy liquicy thingy" from my nose.... I might look like a junkie... ( as a result of my insomniac )...but I have an excellent constitution… so I rarely got sick… But dunno… I guess I had to do the sport routine again…
I couldn't slept last night... dunno what's happen but it was damn hot !!... So I turn on my PC and start drawing some icons using paint and Corel Draw... and as u can see... a silly icon is replacing my old sephia colored icon...
Not bad for a coughing and sneezing man who can barely focus on the mouse movement… LOL
Line of the day : "....yay..yay.."
( Escobar Tongue : Kung POW )
posted @ 2:10 AM 1 comments
I’m not feeling well… I had a cold… my nose is itchy, I’m sneezing all the time, my head felt like it’s half empty, seeing things double… It seems my disturbed sleeping schedule is finally breaking my constitution apart… ( and considering that I’m actually an insomniacs is a hilarious fact… ).
Line of the day : "...Atchuu..."
( Mike Myers : Shrek 2 )
posted @ 11:04 PM 2 comments
Line of the day : "...Atchuu..."
( Mike Myers : Shrek 2 )
posted @ 11:04 PM 2 comments
This morning I got a call from HRD department of USG, it's probably the biggest garment industry in central java. I knew that the company is one of the major forces in Indonesian garment business.
The company was inviting me to an interview that would take place on Tuesday next week on Semarang.
I was surprised; I never sent any application or whatsoever to that company... Later I found out that the company found my profile from the graduation book.
And I'm majoring civil engineering, not textile engineering.
Unfortunately... I’ve already signing up for a semester in ITC UGM. And I’ve paid the whole cost.
Sigh... the offer was too good to turn down. But I’ve made up my mind… and I’ve still got some unfinished business here anyway...
Line of the day : "...relax guys, it's going to be fine.."
( Tobey McGuire : Sea Biscuit )
posted @ 1:36 AM 2 comments
The company was inviting me to an interview that would take place on Tuesday next week on Semarang.
I was surprised; I never sent any application or whatsoever to that company... Later I found out that the company found my profile from the graduation book.
And I'm majoring civil engineering, not textile engineering.
Unfortunately... I’ve already signing up for a semester in ITC UGM. And I’ve paid the whole cost.
Sigh... the offer was too good to turn down. But I’ve made up my mind… and I’ve still got some unfinished business here anyway...
Line of the day : "...relax guys, it's going to be fine.."
( Tobey McGuire : Sea Biscuit )
posted @ 1:36 AM 2 comments
A mistery for you my friends.....
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a young man... at twenty something... thinks that he is the word master... tap dancing the finger on the keyboard... imagining...
a man... at forty something... thinks that his world is about to crumble... slow dancing the finger on his head... wondering...
a woman... at thirty something... thinks that she is beautiful... skate dancing the lipstick on the mirror... agonizing...
a bullet... exact six month... thinks that he is being ignored... freezing on the chamber... waiting...
[ the young man ]
a 14" monitor... a grand CPU... a mouse... a keyboard....
a writer... an ash tray... a cup of coffee... and a cell phone...
left side cheek... eyes blinking... some dancing fingers... and taping foot...
"I'm screwed... gotta figure something out fast... com' on... think dammit... think....". He turns his head, and then smiled. Comforting himself.... " huff... I got 12 hour before the deadline....". I can do this.....
[ the man ]
a revolver... a pulled trigger... six chambers... and one bullet...
a driver... an ash tray... a cell phone... and a lighted cigarette...
right side forehead... both eyes closed... trembling hand... and scrapped knee...
"I love her... no matter what.... I do". He swiftly pulls the trigger... "Damn... why he gave me this heavy revolver anyway....". Then he smiled as he saw his image reflected by the shine on his revolver....
[ the woman ]
a lipstick... a bottle of perfume... a mirror... a red gown...
a dancer... a glass of whiskey... a ring... a scrap of paper...
around the neck... tired eyes... soft skin... and crossed legs...
She dressed out for the kill...."Should I tell him that I've made out my mind ??". She nods her head... ( in slight hesitation ). "Yes... I loved him too...". She has finished the writing on the mirror.... it said " I QUIT !!!"
[ the bullet ]
psst… hey… you… yeah you.
Are you going to use me or not ???… This chamber is killing me….
….. still no answer….
Hey… are you sleeping… wake up man… Make up your mind…
to be continued....
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And btw... this is not a side story.... this story stands alone and got nothing to do with " So I Loved the Death"...
Line of the day : "....make it santoris time..."
( Bill Murray : Lost in Translation )
posted @ 10:40 PM 3 comments
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a bullet whisper
a young man... at twenty something... thinks that he is the word master... tap dancing the finger on the keyboard... imagining...
a man... at forty something... thinks that his world is about to crumble... slow dancing the finger on his head... wondering...
a woman... at thirty something... thinks that she is beautiful... skate dancing the lipstick on the mirror... agonizing...
a bullet... exact six month... thinks that he is being ignored... freezing on the chamber... waiting...
[ the young man ]
a 14" monitor... a grand CPU... a mouse... a keyboard....
a writer... an ash tray... a cup of coffee... and a cell phone...
left side cheek... eyes blinking... some dancing fingers... and taping foot...
"I'm screwed... gotta figure something out fast... com' on... think dammit... think....". He turns his head, and then smiled. Comforting himself.... " huff... I got 12 hour before the deadline....". I can do this.....
[ the man ]
a revolver... a pulled trigger... six chambers... and one bullet...
a driver... an ash tray... a cell phone... and a lighted cigarette...
right side forehead... both eyes closed... trembling hand... and scrapped knee...
"I love her... no matter what.... I do". He swiftly pulls the trigger... "Damn... why he gave me this heavy revolver anyway....". Then he smiled as he saw his image reflected by the shine on his revolver....
[ the woman ]
a lipstick... a bottle of perfume... a mirror... a red gown...
a dancer... a glass of whiskey... a ring... a scrap of paper...
around the neck... tired eyes... soft skin... and crossed legs...
She dressed out for the kill...."Should I tell him that I've made out my mind ??". She nods her head... ( in slight hesitation ). "Yes... I loved him too...". She has finished the writing on the mirror.... it said " I QUIT !!!"
[ the bullet ]
psst… hey… you… yeah you.
Are you going to use me or not ???… This chamber is killing me….
….. still no answer….
Hey… are you sleeping… wake up man… Make up your mind…
to be continued....
=========================================================
And btw... this is not a side story.... this story stands alone and got nothing to do with " So I Loved the Death"...
Line of the day : "....make it santoris time..."
( Bill Murray : Lost in Translation )
posted @ 10:40 PM 3 comments
when I decided to went off line..... beep... that familar beep is ringing through the headphones... an smiley icon is laugh me out at one window messenger... I felt the monitor is begging me not to leave... and the keyboard suddenly looks so... appealing... :)
ego : hi bro...
spin : hyup.... wazzup ??
ego : lost your glasses eh...??
spin : how the heck did you know....
ego : read it on ur blogs... DUH !!!...
spin : oh... silly me.. sure you do....
ego : ....well...??
spin : what ??....
ego : ur glasses dude.... u still a sloppy lad....
spin : oh... found it... I left it on the last place I had dinner that night...
ego : gut 4 u....
spin :... yeah... btw... that sounds sooo LIPTON.... LOL...
ego :...hehehe... thought you rarely watch tv...
spin : yeah... actually I didn't watch tv much.... but that ad was soo funny...
ego : stayin' up late again...??
spin : yeah... posting new blogs... dun lemme bore u... LOL
ego : nawh... you always had your way to throw something funny....
spin : huhuhu..... does irony counts ???
ego : well... you would laugh at it wouldn't you ???
spin : ...hahaha... not always...actually....
ego : why pop irony out ??... something struck u down ??...
spin : dunno... I'm not the man I used to be....
ego : hehehe... now you sounds like Boyz II Men....
spin : hehe.. you can't say no to the beatles...
ego : listen them a lot....??
spin : nawh.... just few songs....
ego : eh... gtg... bro...
spin : whoaa.... why ??.. geez... what happens with " lets get drunks with words and tap dancing the keyboard..??"
ego : hey... that was your line dude.... not mine....
spin : hehe.. forgive my short term memory sir...
ego : geezz... I'm sleepy... and I got to go to works in early morning....
spin : yeah mr. workingman.....hey... what happen with the freelance writing... ??
ego : didn't have much time now... btw... I heard that you wrote a story ???
spin : man.... never trust a gossip.... :)
ego : what about " So I Loved the Death ".... it's nice a job dude.... post me when its done....
spin : hey.. I thought you were LEAVING ???.... LOL..... okay...okay... I'll post my story when it's done...
ego : hmppphhh... 'kay... see you... but not so soon I hope.... haha....
spin : hehehe... take care dude !!!... wishing you a total nightmare.... it will wake you up sooner... LOL
ego : hehe... bye...
Just when I'm going to went off line... this old friend of mine showed up...
He's been missing for months !!!...
Line of the day : "...you can't trust someone who thinks you're crazy..."
( Halle Berry : Gothika )
posted @ 2:06 AM 0 comments
ego : hi bro...
spin : hyup.... wazzup ??
ego : lost your glasses eh...??
spin : how the heck did you know....
ego : read it on ur blogs... DUH !!!...
spin : oh... silly me.. sure you do....
ego : ....well...??
spin : what ??....
ego : ur glasses dude.... u still a sloppy lad....
spin : oh... found it... I left it on the last place I had dinner that night...
ego : gut 4 u....
spin :... yeah... btw... that sounds sooo LIPTON.... LOL...
ego :...hehehe... thought you rarely watch tv...
spin : yeah... actually I didn't watch tv much.... but that ad was soo funny...
ego : stayin' up late again...??
spin : yeah... posting new blogs... dun lemme bore u... LOL
ego : nawh... you always had your way to throw something funny....
spin : huhuhu..... does irony counts ???
ego : well... you would laugh at it wouldn't you ???
spin : ...hahaha... not always...actually....
ego : why pop irony out ??... something struck u down ??...
spin : dunno... I'm not the man I used to be....
ego : hehehe... now you sounds like Boyz II Men....
spin : hehe.. you can't say no to the beatles...
ego : listen them a lot....??
spin : nawh.... just few songs....
ego : eh... gtg... bro...
spin : whoaa.... why ??.. geez... what happens with " lets get drunks with words and tap dancing the keyboard..??"
ego : hey... that was your line dude.... not mine....
spin : hehe.. forgive my short term memory sir...
ego : geezz... I'm sleepy... and I got to go to works in early morning....
spin : yeah mr. workingman.....hey... what happen with the freelance writing... ??
ego : didn't have much time now... btw... I heard that you wrote a story ???
spin : man.... never trust a gossip.... :)
ego : what about " So I Loved the Death ".... it's nice a job dude.... post me when its done....
spin : hey.. I thought you were LEAVING ???.... LOL..... okay...okay... I'll post my story when it's done...
ego : hmppphhh... 'kay... see you... but not so soon I hope.... haha....
spin : hehehe... take care dude !!!... wishing you a total nightmare.... it will wake you up sooner... LOL
ego : hehe... bye...
Just when I'm going to went off line... this old friend of mine showed up...
He's been missing for months !!!...
Line of the day : "...you can't trust someone who thinks you're crazy..."
( Halle Berry : Gothika )
posted @ 2:06 AM 0 comments
I went to Saptos house yesterday... since I've never been there before, he drawed me a map on my notebook. And later... I realize that my bestfriend is awful at navigation... ( soowwrry sap !! )
Got OL from his house and later in the ebooks forum someone just happen to post the "shopaholic" trilogy. It didn't drag my interest though... not until some of my friends are shouting me to read those books... hey... I thought that those trilogy was for girls... I'm allergic to malls LOL... But then I read the 1st book... and totally amazed at several opening chapters...
But the truth is..... I'm dying to read "a suitable boy" by Vikram Seth... It got me drooling for years and yet... still I couldn't get my hands on it... :(
Btw... a book expo is held here until 10th Oct. But I've been there, and none of my wish list is available... but some of the art books were awesome... but crazey prized...
Here is my wishlist... :
posted @ 1:03 AM 1 comments
Got OL from his house and later in the ebooks forum someone just happen to post the "shopaholic" trilogy. It didn't drag my interest though... not until some of my friends are shouting me to read those books... hey... I thought that those trilogy was for girls... I'm allergic to malls LOL... But then I read the 1st book... and totally amazed at several opening chapters...
But the truth is..... I'm dying to read "a suitable boy" by Vikram Seth... It got me drooling for years and yet... still I couldn't get my hands on it... :(
Btw... a book expo is held here until 10th Oct. But I've been there, and none of my wish list is available... but some of the art books were awesome... but crazey prized...
Here is my wishlist... :
- A Suitable Boy by Vikram Seth
- The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand
- The Remains of the Day by Kazuo Ishiguro
- Love in the Time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
- The Cairo Trilogy by Nagouib Mahfouz
- The New Pearl Harbor : Disturbing Question About Bush Administration and 9/11 by David Ray Griffin
- The Essay, Reading for the Writing Process by Goldman and Hirsch
- The Venture of Islam by Marshall G.S. Hodgson ( I already had the 1st and 2nd edition...the translation progress on the 3rd edition is too slow... )
Most of them are novel....yes...novel..... Wonder.... those book is haunting me.... LOL
Later, Sapto is offering me to tag along with him and some other buddies on a trip to Mount Merapi... I swear I could jumped in the air with joy... until... I remember that my right knee is never fully recovered from that nasty injury... I walk and run normally, but when I had a go... do a jogging for example... it's often followed by this pain on my knee... and believe me... the pain is almost unbearable...
I miss the mountain for sure...
Line of the day : "...aahhh... my knee..."
( Troy Winbush : The Replacements )
posted @ 1:03 AM 1 comments
Well.. as I was soooo ready to snuck myself under my warm blanket.
I suddenly remember that I've rented some movies. The Pianist, Door to Door, Smallville season 2 and Scooby Doo 2 ( monster unleashed ).Soo.. I turn on my PC and my 1st choices was the smallville series ( For unknown reason smallville is disappear from SCTV... geezz ).
And what do you know... in the middle of the first episode... my PC was halted. I tried Ctrl+Alt+Del... ( XP is much easier on multitasking... ) and is still nothing... I Could do nothing about it... so I push the "holy" reset button... and try to play it again after some shitty disc check... And still the same shit occured. F**K !!, I checked the disc and it was fine... and by the time I looked on my monitor, my PC was halting again. I tried to fix things up, system restore always work for me... but not tonight. I even tried the safe mode..., and it still halting... even in safe mode... :(
I was so frustrated... I tried the safe mode once again... and while it's working I moved all my important files.And I have to re-install everything... including formatting... and when it's done... I just remember that I left my sound driver on my old place... what the heck... I jump into my bike... and tried to make my way about 20 km to kaliurang... and damn... it's freezin'... and to make everything perfect... the lower part of kaliurang had a black out... I mean total black out... the only electricity I saw was on UGM campus... SHIT !!!...and I'm not even half way there... I stopped... light my cigar... and decided to go home...
I only made one small stop... this "crazey priced" cybercafe just to post this !!!!
Line of the day : "...your father sent me..."
( Val Kilmer : Spartan )
posted @ 4:33 AM 2 comments
I suddenly remember that I've rented some movies. The Pianist, Door to Door, Smallville season 2 and Scooby Doo 2 ( monster unleashed ).Soo.. I turn on my PC and my 1st choices was the smallville series ( For unknown reason smallville is disappear from SCTV... geezz ).
And what do you know... in the middle of the first episode... my PC was halted. I tried Ctrl+Alt+Del... ( XP is much easier on multitasking... ) and is still nothing... I Could do nothing about it... so I push the "holy" reset button... and try to play it again after some shitty disc check... And still the same shit occured. F**K !!, I checked the disc and it was fine... and by the time I looked on my monitor, my PC was halting again. I tried to fix things up, system restore always work for me... but not tonight. I even tried the safe mode..., and it still halting... even in safe mode... :(
I was so frustrated... I tried the safe mode once again... and while it's working I moved all my important files.And I have to re-install everything... including formatting... and when it's done... I just remember that I left my sound driver on my old place... what the heck... I jump into my bike... and tried to make my way about 20 km to kaliurang... and damn... it's freezin'... and to make everything perfect... the lower part of kaliurang had a black out... I mean total black out... the only electricity I saw was on UGM campus... SHIT !!!...and I'm not even half way there... I stopped... light my cigar... and decided to go home...
I only made one small stop... this "crazey priced" cybercafe just to post this !!!!
Line of the day : "...your father sent me..."
( Val Kilmer : Spartan )
posted @ 4:33 AM 2 comments
I woke up at 2 am in the morning and realized that I'm back in Jogja again... My throat is dry like hell... So I picked up my wallet and walked outside my boarding house. Thank God there is still one store that opens... I drown my throat with two bottle of tea... what a relief...
But when I open my wallet I found out that I was broke... I just remember that a few cousin drop by and they asked me out to be their guide for a trip around Jogja... So that explain everything...
And to make it worst..... as I walked home... at the entrance I just realized... my friends were true... My new place is spooky.... it looks like a "uji nyali" location... geezz...
Line of the Day : "....until you got yourself alone in the room full of shadow..."
( Dustin Hoffman : Runaway Jury )
posted @ 8:49 AM 2 comments
But when I open my wallet I found out that I was broke... I just remember that a few cousin drop by and they asked me out to be their guide for a trip around Jogja... So that explain everything...
And to make it worst..... as I walked home... at the entrance I just realized... my friends were true... My new place is spooky.... it looks like a "uji nyali" location... geezz...
Line of the Day : "....until you got yourself alone in the room full of shadow..."
( Dustin Hoffman : Runaway Jury )
posted @ 8:49 AM 2 comments
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